Frankly speaking, i'm weak. It's people around me who makes me feel that i should be strong so that i'll be able to take care of them. Initially, it was plain potrait. So that i could conjure an image of a gigantic pair of wings for people to rely on. Struggle, cries, movitations, numb, everything. been there, done that. Through this process, i've found strength and it really empowers me. It wouldn't hurt much for me to take any fall, but it certainly hurts alot more when i see people around me suffer.

Things aren't and won't be the same anymore for me. Nothing really matters anymore. No selfish thoughts, no narrow-minded intentions, it's all about being selfless, willing to go distance for the goodwill of your folks.

Somehow, i think all these are blessings in disguise. God or whoever you are, you made me strong. You're not here to get pleasure out of my sorrows and i'm thankful for that. In fact, i haven't failed you. have i ?

I have to go on. I have to be strong, and i will. :)